Always, by Kim Kaze

Always Kim Kaze

Always a tower
Always, always, always
Never allowed to rest
Never, never, never
Rest denied,
It's always a sin.

The work of a Man
The rights of a woman
The love from a Father
The pain of a lifetime

Never keeping what I want to hold onto
But you are my rock
And nothing will ever change that

Always a white knight
With a black heart
That beats with red blood
The compassion of a mother
Come from above
Injected into my brain
From above

The skies have changed me
Made me new
A fresh heart,
A new start
Every day carving a way
Into the dark

Every time I think it's over
It comes back just as tough again
Just as hard again
Banging on my brain
Inside my patience insane
Held in by a membrane
Of the Word's words
Coming in sounds and verbs
A whole herd
It's impossible to hold on now
Keep holding on and how
Can I say I know Him
When I ignore Him and still sin?

I wait for the day I'm worthy
Instead of holey
Not holy like He is holy
Please show me, lord
Please don't leave a shard
Of the old me left to playact hard
My next card needs to work
And deliver
If you consider what I've done
There's no excuses, I can't shun
What I have done, because
He's LORD, -

And without Him, I am at sea,
And abroad, without a prayer

All my cares heavy and rope around my neck.

My power, my pleasure, my pain
All rolled into two, three, four...
Sometimes I feel drained
And I can't go on, but there is a door
It's Him, and sometimes Ken
Sometimes Kel, sometimes it's none of them.
Sometimes it's me alone,
But always, I have to stand before the throne
Of my own life, and decide
Who will sit there today;
Will I reside
Or will I confide in and
Lie in Him;
Defy the liar
And continue to be a blessing

And so it rocks on
Hurt again
Shot down again
Afraid, aggressive,
I am ‘angry from Keynsham’;
‘Angry from Destron HQ’
Furious that I bleed from the heart
Ready to HIT YOU.

But despite my mouth,
My feelings and my soul,
I know I won't fall into the deeper hole
He's got me too tight
And despite the fact that
I always have to stand tall
Always a wall of strength
Round the clock on call,
I know this.
I know this.
I know this one truth.

Always a tower
Never rested
No TLC. No R and R

A warrior, staggering from the frontal assault,
I know I'm at fault,
But the pain is too much to bear.
The shame is too deep to share.
Believe me,
There's no one who can see me,
Outside of Him who bleeds freely,
And that's the bottom line.

What?

- George AKA Kim Kaze