Infuriating

If it wasn't real
Or it didn't matter
Then I wouldn't care
The fact I do means
I can't ignore
The battles that we share

Alone is a deception
A veil to hide the light
You beat it back
It returns black
Impregnates your insight

Approval from the outside
Nothing matters more than this
Yet real friends just won't approve
Of knives you try to kiss

When doctors raise their scalpel
Sever red and remove lumps
They won't pay heed to your pet growth
Or leave your favourite clumps

A real surgeon operates
With aim to save your life
He won't back down or shrink away
When you cry 'Stop - it's strife!'

You can't save men from drowning
Without a diving mask
If you keep going down there
You'll stay beneath the glass

The heavens that you dwell in
Haven't solved a single thing
Get real and stop pretending
You're not the first to brass his ring

There's no shame in admitting
That it's hard and there's still pain
There are programes to help people
And big evil hopes they wane

Without rooting in The Body
There's no healing; no acceptance
Time won't help; it's getting worse
Drop pride and long, cold glances

Don't take so long to speak the truth
What's true will roll from within
The traps prevent you from the 'norm'
You seek with such chargrin

In short the games have got to stop
Let's start and not feel low
Let's not mope and be so proud
As though we've special woe

The real around you is the start
The net is not the place
You can't find acceptance anywhere
That every morn you don't face

If we really want Him - really want Him
We'll come, our sins n' all
We'll drop excuses, go to church
We'll actually try His stall

We'll stay away as though it bit
From every source of sin
It may mean losing ones we've liked
But choices choose who'll win

You can't have both the old life
All the pain and wishing wells
With glory, light and self acceptance
Ringing songs of praising bells

Faith tells stories yet to come
It speaks of what ain't here
To live in vict'ry every day
We have to shout down fear

We have to speak to sickness
Fear and doubt and ev'ry foe
We have to tell them who is Lord
And order them to go

"But I'm the only one who loves you!"
Cries the whining whisp
"No one accepts who you are
But us, the ones you kiss!"

The end of Fight Club has a gun
A man shoves down inside
He blows away the man inside
The parasite, the lie

The man who loved him now is gone
But finally he's free!
The love was fake; the lust was real
No darkness can escape

The real you is hid in God
The things you seek are His
There's nothing special with your pain
They're all the same - not His

My answer is your answer
The deception's that you can't
The lie is that you're worse somehow
Your cubicle advanced

The trick's to make you feel alone
"No body walked this street.
This blood's not thick enough for me
I choose and then get beat"

We all return to sins we love
Again, again and again
The lie is that you've gone too far
Or that you can't refrain

The lie is that you're better off
Outside the body; the command
It's simple; "get in" says the Lord
"My answer won't expand"

"My word won't change to fit a street
My answer won't evolve
The lie is that you're in some special
Cell my key won't solve"

If you want just what you say
Acceptance, truth and love
Then do it His way not your own
Accept the cost, then shove

Shove everything that lables you
The way you thought you were
Into the bin, whatever sin
Choose simple life, confer

Confer with scripture, but get taught
A man alone's soon tricked
Without a body, without church
The lies return more pricked

Stop feeling guilt for the past
Once He forgives, it's gone
The images may come to mind
But with His word, be strong

Believe what He has said about you
But don't be fooled by sin
The LORD's not mocked nor can he wink
You're either out or in

If you want Him, do it His way
Don't argue or you'll sit
You'll never move while you resent
His ways or friends like grit

I wrote this hoping it might help
Defy the lie that says
I hate you or somehow don't care
I hope that this conveys

I want you stood beside me
I want my friend content
I cannot promise life in joy
But I know that I was sent

I'll end this now and hope it helps
I hope you believe me
I hope you see the love He has
A God sure enough to make me :)