Not had much to say of late

I have been a bit up and down over this change of annual period.

To be blunt; a lot has been really sh*t for me of late. Mainly the sickness, but that's had a knock on effect on my tolerance levels, my attitude towards life, my job and the way I view myself, and also my finances (I do not get paid for work I do not do).

I can't find my time sheet from two weeks ago .... darn it. I need that money.

Things just seem to be getting a bit on top of me lately; I feel as though I struggle to keep up at work. No clue as to why, the stuff that I am doing really isn't all that hard. It's just that I seem to be getting agitated with everything, like I am in the wrong job or the wrong place.

And I know I am. I need a career. But what? And how? I don't know. God is my only hope.

And then ... there's all the good :)

Friends. Seen a lot more of them recently, and really enjoyed it, too. Family. Seen much of them and enjoyed it, though I haven't seen my grandparents for weeks. I just felt really blessed and fortunate in terms of all the sheer stuff that I have, and all the things that I get given to me.

Spent today going to Heathrow in Jazz's car to take Dave Burford to the airport. He's left for a week's holiday in Miami, Florida, to meet some of his friends, including a girl called Diana who he is in a long distance relationship with. Hope he has a good time out there.

So, I shall close this entry by simply saying ... somebody ... anybody, get me to the Lord.

Because my only future is with Him and in Him, and He is all I want anymore. Material life has deserted me; I know this.