Apparently I am what I wish I was,and I love my own type of people

Jung Explorer Test
Actualized type: ESTJ
(who you are)

ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.

Preferred type: ESTJ
(who you prefer to be)

ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.

Attraction type: ESTJ

(who you are attracted to)

ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.

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Makes no sense!

These are the lyrics to the much-talked about, early 90s hit song by Nirvana/Kurt Cobain, Smells Like Teen Spirit. But, the fact is that it still doesn't make any sense and even cultural, clever-dick remarks don't help any. Sure you can read this and that into it if you really want to, but is this not a drug-induced rant into the air? I don't know ... but it's certainly not art. Here goes:

Load up on guns
Bring your friends
It’s fun to lose
And to pretend
She’s overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word

Hello (x 16)

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

I’m worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

Hello (x 16)

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Hello (x 16)

With the lights out it’s less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

Making up for lost time?

Because I didn't just want my Blog/LJ to end up filled with meaningless, short rants or bits of prose, I think I've been totally lazy of late and gone to the sad, other extreme - I've wrote none of my little, essentially 'me' thoughts down at all!

Encourage me to write more, I need it. I like writing, but I charge myself with high standards, and I'm also still unsure how or when to publish my auto biography. It's not yet finished, but the bulk of it is done. Certainly the meat is done.

I could put it online in e book form, or as chapters/web pages. I don't care to get paid for it, though I desperately need the money. Maybe I could ask for a donation if any reader got anything from it at all...like a paypal button.

My dream though, is to see it printed as a paperback or hardback book.

Today was awesome out on the streets. Nine young people let God into their lives and asked Him to forgive their sins and start over with Him in their corner tomorrow. We also spoke to many others and answered questions, building relationships there.

I ended up thinking about all the folk, whether religious or not, believers or not, christians or not, theists or whatever; they all have the same basic needs in their life. All I want, is to give people the option of choosing Christ, choosing His healings, His plan for their life, His forgivness and His love. It is not always easy - damn no. I find it a real slog at times.

But I wouldn't trade places with anyone else. Despite all the struggles, hurts, confusions and sins that I struggle so hard with, the shadows that threaten to steal away my very life from under me, the darkness creeping into the garden and playing around on the swings of my mind ... I know that I flash that torch on them and poof - they're gone. Their power lies in thinking that they hold all the cards and all the authority, when actually they control and hold sweet F.A!

It is a hard life, for all of us. I plan on surviving it, though. I hope you do to.

But if you need your gutter or kerb shared at 3am when there is sleet in the sky ... call me. I'll be there for you.

Because that is who I am. Keynsham's street pastor. Unaffiliated, unashamed and unsurrendering to the 'PC' crowd. Call me what you want - I know who I am. And I will take responsibility for the ground I walk on and my town. I wish we raised our young to be more responsible ... but if I have to do this alone, I will do it alone.

Sometimes heroes sit alone. I don't know if I am one...but my dreams tell me that I should be, at least my mind believes I am. Perhaps I am the tragic villian turned hero, who pays for their crimes by struggling now against the tide in their life.

Only time will tell. Watch this space.