Go, and sin no more

The words of Jesus moments after He saved an adulterous woman from the Jewish death penalty, which she rightly could have suffered in that era of history.

Why did he save her? She deserved to die. She did do that sin. She was guilty and she knew it.

I believe Jesus forgave her because only He has authority on earth to forgive sins. He indeed is LORD of holiness and He can allot holiness to any who throw themselves at His mercy.

Why am I writing this right now?

Simple. The key factor here is that Jesus told her to go and sin no more. Yes; if you like to say it that way, there IS a condition on that forgiveness, because God is not mocked it says elsewhere in scripture.

That condition is repentance, having nothing further to do with that sin and those who drag you down into it. To turn away, to reject it and to live a new way.

Forgiveness is free, but in exchange we carry his 'yoke' (burden). The Bible promises that his burden is easy and his yolk is light, but it doesn't say there is no burden whatsoever.

Therefore, today if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts (Hebrews). Repent of sin, turn away from sin, forgive yourself and let others forgive you. Do not be like a dog that returns to his vomit (sin).

Rethink

Whilst everything around me
Stays the same:
The dogs are walking
Cats are purring.

I look around
and nothing feels
the same it ever did.

It seems to me
that somethings changed
right on the inside,
right on the inside of me.

Currents changing,
Rivers raging,
Inside me, inside me.
You pushed me in
and made me swim
You changed the channel boy,
You changed it all.

The people's faces stare
and they don't care
because their world's
the same it was last night.

But mine's not right
There's war in here,
There's more to fear
Than just another fight.

Currents changing,
Rivers raging,
Inside me, inside me.
You pushed me in
and made me swim
You changed the channel boy,
You changed it all.

And at the end
I'll tell you what;
There's just no way
I will delay

I'll grab on tight
and show that love
born out of fight
that'l live through floods.

Currents changing,
Rivers raging,
Inside me, inside me.
You pushed me in
and made me swim
You changed the channel boy,
We'l still stand tall.

Still stand tall ...
Through it all ...
There's nothing sure,
'Cept love that's pure.

The greatest of these ... it's love.
Love never fails.

Copyright Kim Kaze 2006 (Use with permission)

A mixed bag of nuts

So they say they want me at work until the end of May at least. Well, that's good news. In fact, that's awesome news.

I have a better hire car now, with air conditioning and a CD player, and air bag.

I also have my writing/editing work on the back burner which I will leap into the second I am out of this job, I feel. The job that I am currently in (which I adore) has given me training in keyworking and so I will leave it a trained support worker.

There's a lot more earnings in being a support worker, over a simple receptionist or fill-in staff member at hostels and the like. So I have my media and my support work both now going really well.

All I now need, is to share these joys with my man.

Tunnel of agony

Words streaming down my face,
and into my heart.
My ears must be wrong.
I deny my ears; they lie.
Anger, hatred, desperation, clinging.
I will fight, fight for what is mine.
Surely there is something I can do!

Everything hurts, everything aches.
My mind is rent down the middle,
and I cannot think or plan a single action.

I cry, I moan.
I scream and I hit things.
LIAR! THIEF!
DECEPTION is evil.

I will fight. I will save my hero.
In every way he needs to be saved.

My love burns. I fight.
We seem to find a standing space in the chaos.

Then I have to go.
He says it's fine.
He is going too, for a while.
I trust, I choose to believe.

When I return, he's gone.
Again, I am sick.
I cannot tell anybody.
It's probably nothing, and yet I find clues.
I ache.
Desperate just to hear his voice,
just to know he is all right,
that he is content,
that he is coming home.
And when.

Just waiting, waiting.
Adrenalin spurting, every thought knifes back to the beginning.
The first few words, then the sickness comes.
I think I am going to be sick.
There is a bomb in my gullet.

Just one word, my darling.

Just one.

How spoilt are you, then?

It's one of those things. I thought I would, you know? You are spoiled if your score is over 40, apparently. I think it may be written by an American, so take that into account as you read.

Do you have:
(X) your own cell phone
(X) a tv in your bedroom
(X) an ipod/MP3 player
( ) a photo printer
(X) your own phone line
(X) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(X) high-speed internet access
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
(X) dvd player in bedroom
( ) at least a hundred DVDs
(X) a childfree bathroom
(X) your own in-house office
( ) a pool
( ) a guest house
( ) a game room
(X) a queen-size bed
( ) a stocked bar
(X) a working dishwasher
( ) an icemaker
( ) a working washing machine and dryer
( ) more than 20 pairs of shoes
( ) at least ten things from a designer store
( ) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed authentic art (not lithographs)
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels
( ) a multi-speed bike
( ) a gym membership
( ) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs
( ) a pool table
( ) a tennis court
( ) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis
( ) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
( ) a neighborhood committee membership
( ) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin
( ) wealthy family members
( ) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
(X) a yard
( ) a hammock
( ) a personal trainer
(X) good credit
( ) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now (for emergencies)
( ) more than two credit cards bearing your name (not counting gas cards or debit cards)
( ) a stock portfolio
(X) a passport
( ) a horse
( ) a trust fund (either for you or created by you)
( ) private medical insurance
( ) a college degree, but no student loans

MY TOTAL: 14

Do you:
( ) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week( ) do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
( ) pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes
( ) go on weekend mini-vacations
( ) send dinners back with every flaw
( ) wear perfume or cologne
( ) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
( ) have a job but don't need the money OR
( ) stay at home with little financial sacrifice
( ) pay someone else to cook your meals
( ) pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
( ) regularly pay someone else to drive you
( ) expect a gift after you fight with your partner

MY TOTAL: 0

Are you:
( ) an only child
( ) married/partnered to a wealthy person
( ) baffled/surprised when you don't get your way

MY TOTAL: 0

Have you:
( ) been on a cruise
(X) traveled out of the country
(X) met a celebrity
( ) been to the carribean
(X) been to Europe
( ) been to Hawaii
(X) been to New York
( ) Eaten at the space needle in seattle
( ) been to mall of america
( ) been on the eiffel tower in paris
( ) been on the statue of liberty in new york
(X) moved more than three times because you wanted to
(X) dined with local political figures
( ) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast (in any country)

MY TOTAL: 6

Did you:
(X) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
( ) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
( ) attend private school
( ) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you

MY TOTAL: 1

MY TOTAL: 21